November 4, 2014

Why I Love My Church

Yesterday Bishop and I went on an adventure.  I needed to buy a certain hair care product (completely different story) so I decided to take a walk to the nearest walgreens.  On the way back, we stopped at a Christian gift store that's in our neighborhood.  I have often passed it driving and I always love to go into Christian stores and look around.  So I went in and almost immediately started talking to the lady who was working there.  She was very friendly and was telling me all about the church next door that the store was affiliated with and all about the services and daycare and whatnot.  So I checked out their website today because I was wondering if they were associated with any denomination and what kind of stuff they believed in. 

I found pretty much what I expected: Non-denominational, bible is infallible, substitutional atonement, family is awesome (not sure if that's code or not).  Then I started wondering if our church had any absolute statements like that.  I didn't think they would.  I was guessing I would find some statements taken out of the Methodist handbook.  The closest thing I could find was this, "The Table is a place where...  you will not be handed a checklist of orthodoxy."  That statement right there warmed my heart. 

My church is a place where I don't have to pretend I agree with anything.  I don't have to put aside my questions and doubts when I come to service.  If I'm not sure there is a God this week, I don't have to skip service for fear of being blasphemous.  And most importantly, I don't have to pretend I disapprove of gay people.  Because I don't, and they don't.  It's a place where I can be my 100% genuine self. 

April 20, 2014

Happy Easter!

Just wrapping up the Lenten season with my obligatory end of year post.  I had a great time doing this blog this year.  I hope that it wasn't terribly depressing reading my thoughts.  I've done a lot of growing over the past month and a half and I look forward to what next year has to bring.  I want to thank all of the people who have supported me over the course of the last year.  I love you all!  You're totally awesome.

If I don't blog again before next year's Lent, have a great year, dear readers, wanderers, and fellow inmates.

April 19, 2014

Easter Vigil

To finish up the Triduum of Thursday-Saturday before Easter Sunday, we had our Easter Vigil tonight.  I spent pretty much the entire day at church setting up for things, taking things down, setting up again, and running through practices.  I don't think I knew exactly how much goes into these kinds of holidays until I started helping out with them!

I think this vigil has become my favorite.  Watching the new Catholics getting baptized and their first communion was so amazing.  I wish I could put exactly into words how wonderful watching the experience was.  It's something I'm going to have to think about before I can explain exactly, I think.  Still, all of the ritual that is involved with the Easter Vigil is great, especially with reminding us why we are Christian and what we are celebrating.  Also, my fasting is over now.  Woo!

I'll probably do my last post tomorrow as per usual with the obligatory suggestion that we might still blog here and there.  Hey, it could happen right?  Year 3!  Woo!

Last Day of Lent!

Well, lent is coming to close so this is my last 'mandatory' post.  I think I did pretty good this year.  I only missed 2 posts and they just happened to be in the same week. 

Easter is tomorrow.  We're going to the in-laws for dinner.  We just got back from their house for a practice run.  Tomorrow we're gonna get up for church and then go over to grandmas house and watch Bishops cousins hunt some eggs.  I'm sure they'll let him play with their eggs after they get all the candy out of them. 

Anyway, to celebrate the end of lent, I'm gonna post a bunch of pictures!  There might be some duplicates in here.  I'm not really keeping track. 









April 18, 2014

Good Friday

Apparently the post I created yesterday did not actually go through.  Either that or I'm losing my mind, because I totally remember making a post and publishing the post, but I no longer see it here.  Very odd.

To make up for that-and thus missing a day of Lent blogging-I have decided to answer a 'viewer question'.  I don't actually know if my sister reads my blogs, so she may not actually be a 'viewer' but I guess she's going to have to in order to get the answer to her question.  Love you sis! :)

 


I didn't have time to write an answer to my sister's question "Why is today called 'Good Friday'?" this morning.  I did see it, but then I had to go to church.  In a way, I'm very glad I didn't try to answer it then.  The homily was about why today is called Good Friday, and so I am totally going to respond here with what I learned today at church.

Good Friday is called "Good" because it is the day that Jesus fulfilled his ultimate purpose of coming here to reconcile us to God.  He knew what was about to happen to him and he willingly went to death in order to rectify the separation between God and creation.  His sacrifice was "good"; his wounds wash away our sin, and his suffering and death reconcile us to God.

The exact question was the appropriateness of calling the day "Good", I believe, however.  In this case, I would say it is completely appropriate.  If Jesus were just a good man put to death, I could understand why we might be hesitant to call the day a "good" one.  But Jesus was God incarnate in the creation of man and knew that his sacrifice and death would establish a new covenant between God and creation.  As one of the members of the trinity and therefore fully God, but also a member of creation and therefore fully human, he is the only one capable of bringing about the salvation of creation.  So today is a good day, because even though Jesus was crucified, it is the beginning of our hope, salvation, and the triumph over sin.

I hope this Is all accurate and I hope this answers your question, sis!

Cats and Dogs

Well, Odin and Etta are making progress.  Yesterday Etta was hiding in the storage space on the ceiling of the laundry room.  Today she spent a few hours on our bed and then came down on the floor and has been testing the boundaries around the dog.  They were doing really good and they got a few feet apart without either of them freaking out and then Odin went after her.  So I put him outside.  I'm not sure if dogs learn their lesson that way but at least it will make Etta feel better.  She's being so brave compared to yesterday.  I was getting a little worried about her yesterday but I think she's learning that he's not dangerous so she can walk around her own house again.

On another note, I'm going up to my bff's house tonight for a birthday BBQ!  Johns staying home with Bishop so that I can have enough time for fun and not have to be home at 8 o'clock.  This is especially helpful because it's an hour drive to her house.  It's gonna be fun times!

April 17, 2014

New Family Member

Odin is here!  Here's some pictures. 

 So, we have discovered that he is a stuffed animal dog.  After he ran around the yard and absorbed all the new smells, he came inside and picked up every one of Bishops stuffies that were laying on the floor.  There was at least 20 of them lying around.  So I put away all the nice ones that I don't want destroyed and left a few out for him to play with. 

He's wonderful with Bishop.  He licks his face and hands and doesn't care when Bishop grabs his face.  Bishop has cried one time when Odin licked his face too much. 

The only real problem is the cat.  Etta was hiding when Odin came home and when she finally came out, Odin chased her.  So I haven't seen much of Etta since yesterday.  I tried telling Odin 'no' after he chased Etta this morning but I don't know if that'll be enough to get him to stop.  I guess we'll see what happens.  Overall though, he's a really great dog! 


April 16, 2014

Four Days Off!

Tonight is the start of my four day vacation from work.  It is also the start of the end of Lent, with tomorrow being a holy day for Catholics.  I really enjoyed this Lent.  I feel like I encountered a lot of things that I'd been struggling with and am better prepared to go about fixing problems this year.  I really don't have much else to say tonight.  It must be a low-creative evening.

Short. But Cute.

Odin will be home in a couple hours!  I can't wait. 

Bishop just woke up.  I can hear him talking to himself on the monitor.  He's probably standing up by now.  

Here is a visual approximation of what I'm about to walk into.  Except he's still wearing jammies.  I'm gonna go get him now. 

April 15, 2014

Blood Mooney

I stayed up last night to watch the moon turn red and eclipse.  I wanted to get some cool pictures to put up here, but then I realized my stupid digital camera wasn't going to get the kind of photos I really wanted.  So in between running outside to watch the eclipse in the snow (that's right, snow), and coming back inside to warm up, I looked online to see how much it would cost to purchase a camera that could take those kinds of pictures.  As it turns out, it costs considerably less than I thought to purchase a telescope that takes pictures.  So now my goal is to purchase a telescope that takes pictures.

Hey readers!  Want pictures of the next red eclipse in the tetrad?  So do I!  I'd post pictures if I could afford a telescope that takes pictures.  Monetary contributions make all our lives more exciting!  :)

Captian America round 2

So we're going back to the drive-in tonight for round 2 of trying to see Captain America.  This time we're bringing cash just in case so we are almost sure to be successful this time.  The only way we are not seeing this movie is if the theater suddenly shuts down or possibly we are taken over by another country and all of our cash money is invalid for some reason.  In that case, we might have bigger problems than getting to the theater on time. 

John put up my shelf!  Now I can display my growing up dolls.  I don't think I've ever had them all out in one place before.  I used to keep them on my dresser as a kid but mom had all the really young ones put away.  Number 7 was always my favorite because there's a kitty at her feet.  They stop at 16.  I guess that means you're grown up at 16.  I feel like 25 would be a more accurate number.  Although I guess it's different for everyone. 

They're keeping vigilant watch over the dinner table

April 14, 2014

Last week

Only 2 days until Odin comes home!  I don't think I've ever been so excited about a dog.  I usually only care about cats.  I think it's because he's small and I like having animals that can comfortably sit in your lap. 

We're so close to Easter!  That means we're gonna stop blogging everyday but we'll be like "We'll totally still blog sometimes!"  And then do like 2 blogs between now and next lent.  We should arrange more writing events.  Kris and I need to have a conference.  I mean, this really isn't suppose to be a lent blog, it's just become one by default because we are terrible self motivators. 

What's in a Name?

Yesterday I finally did what I have been fighting since I first started working at the gas station; I accidentally started to call my coworker, Haily, "Angela".  I did this twice.  I'm a terrible person.  Yet I maintain that it was an understandable mistake because Haily, like Angela, is into the same random crazy writings, movies, and whatnot that we are.  She even read Twilight like Angela and shares a mutual dislike (and I've kind of been forcing her to watch all of them with me while we listen to RiffTrax, because that is the only way I will watch them).

She would probably fit in with this blog.  Like, if we started actually collecting people to put up articles the way we had planned to do Asylum 204, she would have her own page, because she is one of the entities that feed on random craziness and regurgitate it as awesome.  If we were all together in a room, it would start the end of the world because Jesus would totally come back to chill with us, thus accidentally ushering in the apocalypse.  Or something not sacrilegious but along those lines.  Yeah.

Angela, why aren't we doing Asylum 204 the way we'd talked about?

EDIT:  Oh yeah, because we procrastinate at writing.

EDIT II:  We need to stop doing that.

April 13, 2014

Naps

Bishop found a new person to flirt with in church today.  He kept taping her on the shoulder during service.  He was trying to pull himself up on the pew again.  He stands up on everything now.  He started this new things were he hits himself on the side of the head, especially when he's tired.  It's like he's trying to beat himself to sleep.  Apparently him and John are on the same nap schedule.  They both fell asleep at the same time but John slept about 20 minutes longer than Bishop.  Now they're hanging out together while I finish blogging.  Bishop likes to pull the cord out from the computer which is bad cause the battery is shot.  It's so bad that even though it says its fully charged, there's a red X over the battery symbol.  That means "yeah, it's charged but you're battery life is like a minute". 

Here's a picture of Bishop foraging for diaper supplies.  


Palm Sunday

I don't remember going to Palm Sunday last year at my church.  I don't know why, but I really have no recollection of it.  Maybe I didn't?  I think maybe I was at another church for some reason.  I'm really glad I went this year though.  My church does this awesome service where we start outside with the palm branches, then come inside with singing.  After that, we have portions of regular mass, then we do like the entire passion scene with call/response from various readers.  It was totally cool.

I was really glad most of the RCIA crowd showed up for it, since I don't think it's a mandatory service for them to be at our particular church but I also haven't been to a service like that before.  Maybe it's because we always went to Saturday service with Grandma?  I remember getting the palms and going in and having the palms blessed, but I don't remember ever doing all that we did today before.

Last week before Easter!

I'm still doing the fasting thing.  Still blogging.  My sister and I are supposed to be starting an exercise video soon so I'm looking forward to that.  I think I took on too much this Lent and maybe not the right things.  Oh well!  I have the rest of the year to do other things!

April 12, 2014

Emotional Wreck

I don't really know what's going on with me right now, but I do know it isn't healthy.  I keep going through periods of feeling absolutely like nothing is wrong, and then turn around and lash out in anger at the drop of a hat.  I have no idea what that even is.  Am I bottling something up?  Am I blocking something?  Have I started to let something out that I can't control?  Am I just going crazy? I sincerely don't know.

I suppose this is the part where people suggest going and talking to a counselor, and they wouldn't be wrong.  The logistics of it aren't going to be an easy solution, however.  Perhaps all of this could just be resolved with the extended break I've taken from work next week?  I hope so.  I'm drained from all of this up and down.

Lent Fail 2: the search for more money

Wow, I'm really dropping the ball this week.  I think my brain is conspiring against me.  Last night after Bishop went to bed, John asked me if I blogged yet.  I said no and thought I totally need to do that and then IMMEDIATELY FORGOT ABOUT IT!  It's like my brain thought that remembering that I hadn't done it was good enough and decided I was done.  Or maybe it thinks Easter is here already.  Who knows. 

So we adopted a dog today!  He's so cute.  I mean of course he's cute or we probably wouldn't have adopted him.  He's 2 years old and he's a very large chihuahua, like at least twice the size of a regular chihuahua so he's most likely a mix.  We decided to name him Odin.  He wasn't fixed yet though so we can't bring him home until Wednesday.  That gives us plenty of time to prepare.  We already bought a dish, a leash, and a chew toy for him.  I hope he likes Etta.  And Etta likes him.  She's still in heat so I'm pretty sure she loves everything that moves.... and doesn't move for that matter.  Speaking of which, they just opened a low cost spay and neuter clinic next to the shelter we were at so we're gonna make an appointment there soon to fix Etta so she will calm the fuck down.  This cat is out of control. 

April 11, 2014

First Fire of the Season

So we had a bonfire tonight.  It didn't occur to me until just now that I should have taken pictures.  Documenting fun is totally for blogs and blogging!  This just solidifies my theory that if I had a better phone, I'd use it to take pictures and update this blog.  Probably, maybe...most likely.  Yeah.

The last couple of times we've done a fire, we've had one to burn the things we've 'needed' to burn.  Last time, we burnt our parents' old furniture.  Trust me, it needed to go.  I would update with pictures -again- if I had remembered to take some.  This time we were burning all of our trash newspapers and what not.  I think we should stick with couches.  They're more fun to burn.

Anyway!  Just one more week until Easter.  I'm excited to color eggs with my nephew.  I managed to score Thursday through Sunday off this week.  Maybe I'll remember to include pictures this time!

April 10, 2014

Commercials

I saw a commercial today that started with "Do the numbers on scale keep going up?  It might not be your fault.  It could be your diet."  What?!  My diet?!!  I thought you were just supposed to wish the pounds away?  I was trying so hard!  In all seriousness though, if you have a shitty diet then, yes, it is still your fault.  The only way you can relinquish responsibility for a weight problem are medical issues like a thyroid problem.  I would also say pregnancy but in that case it's not a "problem". 

I'm not saying what specific product they were selling but it was a program that sends you all your food.  You know... in case you don't know how to shop.  You can pay them to shop for you.  Then you won't have any money to buy junk food! 

Ramblings

There are so many things I just want to get into this post right now while I'm inspired.  I've decided to do a series of shorts in a sort of collage because I don't think I can make full posts out of any of them.

The Stone Table

It's not as epic as the Sword in the Stone, but it's basically the same story!  My sister and I came across an advertisement online this past weekend offering a "Free granite table to anyone who could lift it".  Naturally intrigued, we clicked on the link to discover that it was not so much a "table" as much as it was a granite slab just put on top of wooden supports.  We immediately decided that this must be some kind of test.  If you can lift the table, it's yours because you are naturally some manner of royalty right?  If you can lift the table, you can rule from the table.  Too bad it was rectangular instead of round.

Spring at Last!  Spring at Last!

It's finally started to warm up...sort of.  We are STILL getting snow flurries here and there, but overall it is bearable to be outside.  It's also practically jacket weather.  As such, my sister and I have decided to put up a garden.  I can't wait, although the last time we tried this it didn't work out terribly well.  We got like...two small carrots and some mini-corns what had full size kernels.  This year will be different!  Although we are totally going to have to devise a way to keep the rabbits at bay.  Our dog is a good rabbit chaser, but there's only so much she can do at night, and I don't know if we'll get the go ahead to make a fence.  We shall see!

Happy Birthday!

This last is just a shout out to my niece whose birthday it is today.  Lots of love!  I hope your day is wonderful!

April 9, 2014

One Does Not Simply Contact Krangela

Apparently.

So I realized that I totally missed my blog for today and I had a really good one I was going to employ, but then I logged on to see an advertisement that makes absolutely no sense attached to one of Angela's posts.  Hello to you too sir, and welcome to the Asylum.  You apparently seem to fit right in with your interesting form of internet insanity.  Anyway, as promised to you, here is your space to uh...clarify whatever it was you meant.

I must be crazy.  Maybe I shouldn't indulge these people.

Angela?  John?  Thoughts?  Post below.  Here's your comment space people.

EDIT:  Also, touché sir.  I find it incredible that after you came here and spouted off on our blog, you find it prudent to filter/block your own.  I think we shall be looking into this.

EDIT II:  After further research into our blog, I've decided to include this little tidbit.  It's like Easter Eggs in a video game!  We have exactly ONE article that gets ALL The spam and then another article that got one.  The winner of the spam article contest is:  Jesus Gest Toast, Dumbledore Gets Trucks.

Final EDIT:  So as it turns out, our little spam poster is pretty much as I expected him to be.  I had such high hopes for this strangeness that suddenly vomited a random, rambling post all over Angela's poor Lent post yesterday.  A little investigation reveals that he's one of those people who just wants validation and no conversation.  What a pity.  We could have made beautiful insanity together.  Now that post just gets moved to spam.  But anyone else who'd like to contact the Krangela with randomness can still feel free to utilize the space below!  It's so lonely down there!

Lent Fail

I missed my blog yesterday.  I don't even have a good excuse.  I just put it off and then we left to go see Captain America.  But we didn't even get to see it cause they couldn't accept cards at the drive-in and we didn't have enough cash.  So that was about an hour of driving around for nothing.  I guess I was just too disappointed to think about blogging. 

So I googled my maiden name today.  All the results were me and it knew what my married name was.  It's like the internet is stalking me.  One website thinks I still live in Georgetown.  Two other websites think I used to live in Portland.  I've never even been to Portland.  Another website thinks my fathers name is Patrick.  I mean, it might be cause he was adopted and doesn't know his original name but I don't think the website actually knows this.  I think they just confused him with my brother.  Another website thinks I'm related to someone named Daniel Maples.  Then I googled my married name.  None of them were me.  I'm way more anonymous now.  Yay! 

April 8, 2014

Constantly Amazed

I seriously don't know how people actually get to our blog, but I'm always amazed when I see our stats.  This last month we had over 800 views.  Many of those views this week are from outside of the country (at least a good quarter).  Who reads these blogs?  No, I mean, really.  Obviously everyone reads Angela's because they have been topping all of mine since the beginning of Lent.  And I certainly don't blame anyone.  I've been awfully whiney this year.  It's kind of a blah time for me right now.  I'm just saying, you people are strange and wonderful.  I should reward you with more strangeness than I do.

Thanks for reading!

April 7, 2014

Building things

I made this today!  It's my new nightstand.  And by "made" I mean I put it together.  It's from Ikea.  Their furniture is a lot of work.  But I had help. 
He mostly just tried to climb all over my stuff.  He is very determined.  He doesn't hesitate, he just goes for it.  I'm glad we no longer have stairs because he would be all over those. 

Journaling is LIKE Blogging With Yourself

Why does that sound dirty?

I started journaling again yesterday.  After a rough day and pretty much being left emotionally drained, I just wanted somewhere to try to work through some of these feelings and properly quantify them into their right place.  It's pretty slow going.  I don't really know what will come from it.  We'll see how it goes.  Right now, it seems terribly random and confusing, but then that's kind of how I feel on the inside, all random and confused.

I also subbed for the best class EVER today.  The kids were so interested in what we were learning.  They were like little sponges sucking up everything and loving what was happening.  I know, because they didn't want to stop reading the story we were reading together and everyone was saying how much they liked it.  It made me sad I had to end class.  Days like these are what teachers dream of.

April 6, 2014

Busy Sunday

We did lots of stuff today.  We went to church, IHOP, Ikea, and Ross.  Bishop was being super wiggly in church.  He kept going back and forth between me and John.  When he was sitting with John, he would grab the pew in front of him and pull himself up and then tap the lady in front of us on the shoulder so she would pay attention to him.  He loves people.  He's just like his dad.  He doesn't seem like the type to show off or do crazy things to get attention, he just likes smiling at everyone.  Hopefully this means he'll be social but calm.  He's gonna be popular.  He's already got the looks.  The lady at IHOP said all the chicks would be after him.  I said they already are.  Who could say no to this face?!

What? You needed this filed right?








Starting Anew

I had a good long chat with one of the priests at my church today and I've resolved myself to finally move forward on some things that have been keeping me back.  I just want to bury the past in the past and not have it come back to haunt me over and over again.  This week threw me for a loop, because I got side swiped by some pretty rocky parts of my past out of the blue; things that still hurt to think about and also things I didn't know would still hurt when I encountered them again.

After that discussion, I learned some of the reasons behind why those things came up again.  This time, it didn't hurt to talk about.  I don't feel the same weight I did when it happened for 'no reason'.  A part of me feels like I should feel worse about it, but I actually don't.  I'm a little irritated by what happened now, but I no longer feel like it's hovering over me, holding me back.  Either.

I obviously need to take a serious look at what's going on with me, which is going to take a lot of introspection and prayer, but I'm finally ready to move on with my life and I finally feel like I'm in a position to do it.

I just want to finish this post with a huge thank you to every single one of my friends.  I love you all.  You are all awesome.  I'm not a perfect friend.  At times I'm probably unbearable to be around, but you never make me feel like I'm a burden.  You've been here for me in ways you probably will never realize and I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel taken advantage of or awkward.  I hope you all keep in contact with me over the years, because you're awesome.  The best people, honestly.

Thank you!

April 5, 2014

Lateness and Literature

I had pretty much decided to go to bed when I realized I'm late for yet another post.  These haven't been the best for me this year either.

I started reading the Screwtape Letters earlier this week.  I can't put the book down.  I almost finished it in two days, really.  It's a good one.  I can't believe I missed it when I was in college (apparently it's the college must read).  It's terribly creepy in one sense, because it's like the perspective of demons and how they're messing with people.  But then it's entirely mind blowing from another perspective.  I simply can't comprehend how C. S. Lewis completely put a finger on practically every way that we ignore God's call in our lives.  It just boggles my mind.  I would recommend it as a must read, theologian or no.  I'm totally going to go back to Mere Christianity after this, if I can find my copy of it, and have another good read.

That's all really.  Go read a good book!

It's Saturday

I don't really have anything to write about today.  But I have plenty of cute pictures.  Like this one. 

John says I don't write about him enough.  Probably cause I don't take pictures of him everyday.  Blogs are more exciting with visuals.  John fixed our washing machine.  He said it makes him feel like a man.  Plus we can wash our clothes now.  Now I just need a dresser to put them in. 

April 4, 2014

End of the Week

Finally made it to the end of the week.  I'm currently chilling with my dog who can't stop barking if I'm not in the room with her while Steve is helping us fix our leaky pipes in the basement.  This makes me feel awful, actually, but with my nephew upstairs trying to sleep, I can't have a barking dog about.

I've decided to reserve this post for my update.

Fasting is almost over.  I've notice I have much less of an appetite, I can go for long periods of time without food and not feel sick anymore, and I'm actually learning that I can do without a lot of things that I used to use to distract myself.  Reading theology book and scripture is also surprisingly 'filling' in a way.

Still having problems with the cursing, but it's getting better!  I keep saying that, but this is rather turning into a long-run goal instead of a Lent thing.

My sister brought home a new abs workout tape.  I'll be starting that with her soon, hopefully.

Cranky

Por que?!
Someone was being cranky pants this morning.  He was crying about everything!  He's finally playing quietly with his toys.  I think he heard me typing about how good he was being because he came over to play with my computer cord.  He's thinking "how dare you call me a good boy... ha, look what I'm doing now!"  Girls never act like this!  They don't feel the need to touch everything they're not suppose to.  They just cause a lot of drama. 

April 3, 2014

Day Off...ish

Tomorrow is my day off from my 'full time' job.  I can't wait.  I'm so fed up with this week, that I seriously can't take another day there.  I get one more day of subbing for a class I had a lot of fun subbing for today and then I have the afternoon off tomorrow.  And NO I am NOT getting called in, absolutely NOT!

I felt like a "grammar Nazi" today.  A couple of students kept misusing apostrophes.  First a student was trying to make a plural word possessive, but put the apostrophe before the "s".  Then the same student and another one RIGHT next to that student tried to make a word plural, but used an apostrophe to make it possessive.  These are Juniors in high school.  Seriously, what are they being taught anymore?

Just Hangin out

I was gonna rant about the ending of How I Met Your Mother but.... I just don't feel like it anymore.  I made my point to John and now I just don't wanna think about it anymore.  Maybe I'll write about it tomorrow. 

I'm hanging out watching the Newlywed Game while I wait for John to get home.  I was thinking it would be a fun game to play with other couples on a game night.  John and I were watching it the other day and answering the questions.  I just looked over at Bishop and he's chewing on something.  He's crawling away from a corner of the living room with literally nothing to eat.  *sigh* babies....

April 2, 2014

Paper eater

So I was going through some papers and started putting all of the trash paper in a cardboard box.  Bishop promptly pulled every piece out of the box to chew on or play with.  I caught him in the act, which full disclosure, was really easy to do cause I was sitting right next to him.  It happened pretty fast too.  I set the box down and about 2 minutes later, it was completely empty. 

Now he's whining at me.  I think it's bath time.  I'm gonna go wash the rest of the chicken bits off of him from dinner time. 

And Then She Got Mad (might want to just pass this one up)


Warning:  If you don't want to read about my problems, just skip this one.  You aren't missing anything much.



Are their stages of frustration?



Hold that thought.



I'll be.  Yes.  There are totally stages to anger.

One internet search later and my course of this post is completely redirected.  Still, I'll provide some background.  Some.

The last oh....five days I believe, I have been dealing with a lot of high pressure and low pressure situations.  I've been drug into arguments I never wanted to be a part of.  I've been dealing with situations that should never have happened.  I've been pulled at to cause problems I have no business being a part in.  The little bits and pieces of me have become frayed with trying to take myself out of it all.  I was, in my mind, successfully handling the situation until today.

I woke up angry.  I'm on the warpath.  I'm out for blood.  I am so irrationally miffed that I was easily set off by that stupid internet craze going around of people taking pictures of themselves sans make-up and calling it cancer awareness.  And let me lead you down this train of logic for a moment just to get a look at how firmly past irritation we've crossed with five days of constant pressure:

"OH. MY. GOD.  What is WRONG with people?  How is a PICTURE supposed to actually DO something about curing cancer?  I'm so glad you can take a selfie without make-up.  I'm sure someone out there struggling with cancer is so RELIEVED the word is getting out via your heroic act of photography instead of DONATING to the cause to help with paying for their medical bills or to help sponsor research."

That happened faster than I could type it and faster than you could read it.  That went through my brain in under 30 seconds after I saw one more person doing this on facebook.  THAT is the point of mad I am at.  The shaking, unable to contain myself, one small word is going to set me off, please for the LOVE OF GOD LEAVE ME ALONE TODAY mad.

The problem?  I have a high stress 'fulltime' job and I have to work said job today.  I'm going to be put in the middle of another high stress situation very shortly.  Tomorrow I work TWO high stress jobs.  THERE IS NO END IN SIGHT.  This week has been constant harassment to me.  And the people I've tried to just talk to are NOT the right people.

Instead of just letting me vent irrationally so that I can calm down and think things through, their reaction has been:  "clearly you aren't doing anything about your situation so now I have to lecture you about how you can totally handle all these things that aren't in the least bit under your control and tell you how bad you are at managing your life because if you just look for something you'll see you totally could have done something about this situation that I know nothing about."  SHUT.  UP.  How is that EVER helpful, especially to someone who is already basically carrying a loaded gun of anger and words?  Do you really think right now is the right time to play the victim card?  If you don't want to listen just kindly find a means of escape.  Something like:  "Yeah, that sucks.  I'm going to let you calm down now," is preferable.  I'm actually really sorry that I have to talk my problems through.  I just NEED to vent.  Once it's out, I think more clearly and if you're not the person that wants to hear about the bad parts in my life along with the good, then just please stop me with kindness and let me go on with venting to someone or to somewhere else.  Lectures will only make me MORE angry and now that anger is unfortunately, inadvertently directed at you.

I lost the point of this post.

I'm not looking to justify my anger.  I recognize that a lot of it has been slowly escalating since Saturday.  I don't want validation.  I don't want advice right now.  I didn't even want to be angry.  I literally woke up angry, which is something I don't like.  It sets an awful tone for the rest of the day.  I sincerely don't know how some people can just brush things off.  I don't operate that way.  I have been making a lot of progress in getting the reigns on what sets me off, but I'm not perfect and I likely never will be.

Is it possible to be validated in your anger if you know you aren't going to DO anything with it?  Or is it better to keep pretending it's not there and to try to work around it?  Because I've tried doing both and neither works.  The best thing that's helped is writing out this blog.  As vague as it is about the specifics of what's going on today, at least I've managed to say what I wanted to say without fear of reprisal/negative response.

EDIT:  I'm being proactive.  Donate

April 1, 2014

Distraction

I totally meant to come online and do a blog post tonight, but I got home and got distracted with more bad news.  I really kind of just want to go to sleep now.  It's like this week is just trying to cram as much as possible and I'm not handling it well.  I'll try to do a proper, not late, post tomorrow.  Right now, I just want to give up.

Hats and Mysteries

I bought Bishop a sun hat.... just in time for the rain storm.  He looks kinda fabulous in it.  He's even got the model face going. 

Speaking of the rain, it was hailing like crazy today during Bishops nap time.  I was worried he might wake up but he slept right through it.  Then a few minutes after the hail storm, he woke up.  I think it was too quiet for him.  He can't sleep through all that peace and quiet. 

I think after the rain is over, he's gonna be ready to do some gardening.  I'm gonna buy him a little baby shovel and let him play in the dirt.  Hopefully he'll be past the stage were he needs to eat everything he touches.  Which reminds me, I was changing his diaper today and I noticed he was chewing on something.  He was no where near cheerios or anything edible when I picked him up so I took it out of his mouth thinking it was a piece of paper or some other random thing he found on the floor.  It was a piece of chicken.  As in, one of the pieces of chicken he had for dinner last night.  I have no idea where it came from.  I swept the floor and wiped down his highchair after he ate and also changed his jammies.  Was he storing it in his diaper?  Did he horde it somewhere so he could come back for it later?  These are the things that keep me up at night. 

March 31, 2014

Cousins

Bishop got to hang out with his cousins on Saturday.  Austin was letting him play with his toys.  Then Bishop was sucking on The Thing (cause he's a baby) and Austin went and got a paper towel to wipe it off.  It's weird seeing anyone who cares about baby drool.  It's good thing he didn't spit up on him.  Especially when
Bishop was laying on top of him.  Austin probably wouldn't want to play with him anymore.  Then Bishop would be sad.




















Baby tackle!

Might Be a Scam

I seriously dislike our post office.  I have never EVER successfully just gone in and gotten out with anything, including stamps.  Today was the ultimate middle finger though.  I was there for 45 minutes.  45 minutes.  Now you may be thinking "Well yeah, if there's a line.." THERE WAS NO LINE.  I was the line.  This included things like them trying to tell me that I needed to buy one of their boxes, forcing me to repackage a box with some of their bubble-wrap because I unfortunately had none with me, trying to charge me for the tape that I brought in, and then telling me that they were going to be forced to send my mail first class after all, even though they knew what was in it when they told me I could ship it regular mail first.

I saw a sign over to my left that said "It might be a scam" in big letters.  Their poster was talking about some scam going on with lottery.  I think it's more appropriate for that particular location.  I have absolutely NEVER had issues ANYWHERE ELSE but with them.  You'd think I'd learn to go somewhere else.

March 30, 2014

Diet

I've thought of a new diet.  Eat all of your food while holding a 9 month old.  You can only eat with one hand and you have to hold him away from the food on the table and the entire time its traveling to your mouth.  Not to mention keeping him away from the table itself if there are things on there to grab.  It has the duel purpose of making you eat really slow and also burns calories from keeping the baby out of reach from everything. 

We made some chicken for Bishop today.  He decided the best course of action was to wear it.  It was super cute.  And messy.  But mostly cute. 

Chicken is a hat right?

You know what they say...

Angela and I went to the mall today. It has become our Sunday tradition to go people watching at the mall and get coffee and just unwind. With my busy work schedule and the move it hasn't happened in a really long time. So it was good to get out of the house for a few hours and walk around the mall. We always park on the Nordstroms side because that's the fastest way to the coffee and the best seats.

I took this picture of a truck parked in a compact spot to help illustrate my point. This person may not be an asshole, but he sure parks like one... You know what they say about douche bags that drive lifted trucks and I can only guess he read "compact" and thought "yah, it is pretty small, this spot must be for me..." I have never understood the mentality of these morons and their awful ability to park their lifted trucks. But it's a trait that is shared between all of them.


It may not be lifted by much... but it still counts... 

Stuck in the Mud

I was reminded today, because of the fields being wet as they are, of my childhood.  Practically every year my grandfather would get his tractor stuck in the mud it seemed, and we would always go out to rescue him from the mud.  I still have no idea how they ever got the tractor going.  Honestly.  I remember seeing it stuck in the field, but we were always sent back to the house so the adults could get it out.  Even though he went out when it was too wet every year, every time it happened my Dad and Uncle would drive out there and help him get it out.

I kind of like that about my family.  Even if you're ridiculous enough to keep getting yourself stuck in the mud, there's always someone willing to come running to dig you out.  My friends are kind of like that too.

Thanks everyone.

March 29, 2014

Exhasperation

After some really good news this week, I've just had a not so great finale.  The best part was being able to see my friends yesterday.  I'm just going to reserve this post for an update instead.

Still fasting.  I accidentally ate a little more than I intended yesterday and the result was not being hungry for the rest of the day, also feeling quite sick.  I'm convinced I'll need to be careful when I'm done doing this now.  My stomach probably shrank, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

The cursing thing is totally not working out.  I'm still trying, but it's just not going well at all.  I consider this a Lent fail.  At least I'm still trying.

Exercises have been interrupted due to lack of sleep.  I'm having the worst insomnia.  I'm too tired to do things, but too awake to sleep.  I'll get back into it once I get a decent night sleep.

Was there something else I was doing other than this blog?  I don't remember!

Dressed up

Bishop got all dressed up yesterday to go to Hobby Lobby.  I had never been there before.  It's pretty nice.  I went to get something to make stencils with and ended up getting picture frames for our family picture wall.  It's gonna be hard picking the cutest pictures of Bishop to put up.  I want to use all of them.  I don't think there's enough space in the whole house to hang up all of the cute pictures I have of him.  He can't take a bad picture.  Kinda like Barney Stinson.  But waaaaaay cuter. 

March 28, 2014

Not Forgotten, Just Late

For some reason I was having issues getting onto our blog today.  Now I am late for a blog post.  I feel kind of bad too, because I don't actually have much to talk about today.  I'm hoping this will change for tomorrow.  :(  Love!

Hello to all!!!

Dear Internets,

As some of you might know I am John, Angela's husband. I don't know why it took me so long to come up with the idea of writing here, but as they say, "You can't rush perfection." I assume that the person who coined that phrase was shopping for X-rated movies at 9:59 at a Blockbuster that closed at 10:00 and felt a bit rushed.

I used to (still do but never log on) have a blog called "After the Credits" where I reviewed movies. Since I no longer get to see movies on their opening nights, I kind of stopped after an 8 post run. I think from time to time I will review movies because I think that is what I am best at in the world.

Right now Angela is watchguing me blog... and we are ghabibng a staurubg cimtest and i dont know if thins is coming outt ruright. Vuut im fouing tro leave ut ecen ius itr iusntr .

Ok, where was I? Right! my old blog. Angela and I came up with a system for rating movies and I'm going to expand on it just a little for this blog. First off, they are either good movies or bad. Then I award points or "Heads" ranging from .5 to 10. The bad movies are on the Stewart Scale and the good movies are on the Willis Scale. I know what you are thinking, "But Patrick Stewart is awesome...", and you are right. The Stewart Scale is based on Kristen Stewart who has never made a decent movie ever.
On the flip side, I'm assuming you know who Bruce Willis is and IMO he has never made a movie that wasn't at least the smallest bit watchable when compared to the aforementioned "Actress"
In closing... I'm not sure how often im going to blog or if it will even be readable/likable, so stand warned. Until next time Internet... You stay classy...

My Husband

John wants me to write about how awesome he is.  Actually, his exact quote was "You should write about how a... holy shhhhh..." and he never clarified so I filled in the rest by myself.  Then he said "pst!" to the baby cause he was grabbing the cord as if Bishop was a cat.  It didn't work.  He's still playing with it. 

If you're wondering why John is home on Friday afternoon, it's because he's super awesome.  He worked really hard during the first part of the week so his boss told him to take Friday off.  Now I get him to myself alllllll day.  We're gonna go shopping.  I should probably go get ready. 

March 27, 2014

Bath Time

I've been wanting to give my dog a bath for a while now, but with all the snow I didn't want to dry out her fur if she needed the oils in it.  I've never really owned a beagle and she's short hair, so I don't really know what they need.  I suppose one could argue that I have the internet at my disposal and could very easily look this information up myself.  Well one is clearly smarter than I was.

So anyway, I gave her a bath today because it's super muddy outside and I was tired of seeing her coming in covered in mud and trying to scrape it off with a towel.  She did not approve.  She stood against the wall with her paws spread out like I was delousing her or something.  I even tried giving her a choice of shampoo, but she didn't like any of the smells so I chose the one that would be least offensive.  How did she repay me?  She licked herself 'clean'.  Apparently she is not the right smell right now.  Animals are weird.

I'm going to have to figure out how to let her out to do her 'business' without her getting all muddy again.  Maybe a rainy day was NOT the right day for this.

Busy

 This little guy is super busy exploring every corner of the house.  He's so busy that he wore himself out and is currently sleeping on me so I have to type with one hand.  It's taking fooooooooooorever!  But he's cute, I don't wanna disturb him. 

So there's lot of random cats that wander through our yard.  I've seen 3 different ones since we've been here.  I think one of them wanders through everyday.  He's a large fluffy tuxedo cat.  I'm assuming it's a boy because it's enormous.  It's nice to see cats wandering around because I'd like to let Etta go out eventually after she gets fixed and it's good to know that it's safe out there. 
"oh hey... I need this arm"

March 26, 2014

9 months old!

Etta and Bishop trying to escape
Today Bishop is 9 months old!  He has officially been alive longer on the outside than the inside.  Although he was a week early so that actually happened a week ago.  Only 3 more months and he'll be a whole year old!  Then we can have a party at our new house.  I'm excited about the idea of having people over and not have to worry about parking or explaining the best way to get into our apartment complex or worrying about being too noisy for neighbors that we share a wall with.  If we're too noisy at our house, either our neighbors are being unreasonable or the party is out of control.  I don't think either of those will be a problem. 

So, unrelated, I was watching Ink Master last night and the challenge was to tattoo Photo-realistic X-men characters.  If you've never seen it, Ink Master is a tattooing competition.  Anyway, Hugh Jackman showed up to basically look at the tattoos and talk about how amazing they all look and then announce the winner that the judges already picked.  But someone got a tattoo of Bishop.  He's a tall black time traveling mutant with red eyes.  He's the character that Kayla thought we were naming our son after.  He's not, but he does seem like a pretty cool character.  The thing is, this person was getting a tattoo of this person before the movie is even out.  It's not like a comic book thing either cause its a realistic tattoo of the actor in costume.  I guess they're taking a huge gamble that the movie doesn't suck.  Or that the actor does justice to the character.  Here's a picture for reference.  

X-men Bishop

Financial Woahs!

Following the terrible day I had yesterday, I knew I absolutely had to call Sallie Mae today.  I did not want to do this.  Here's been the gist of my experience with them so far:

1st time calling:  I can't pay $420/month on student loans.  I cannot afford it.  I make about that a pay check.  You're asking me to pay an entire pay check a month when I have almost $800 in bills to cover a month.  You're asking me not to eat or to have money to get to work.  The best you can do is make it $210?  I can't afford that. Again, I will not be able to eat or get to work.  Oh!  You can send me paperwork to fill out so I can have affordable payments?  Do that.

2nd time calling (1 month later):  I never received the paperwork.  No, it did not come by e-mail.  I never asked for it by e-mail, it was supposed to arrive by mail by now.  You can't work with me to make affordable payments over the phone at all?  Filling out paperwork is the only chance I have to be approved?  I can't make this $420 payment this month, I just can't.  Okay, you'll defer my loans without penalty again and send me the paperwork?  Good, thanks.

I sent out the paperwork almost a month ago, paying to have it sent express mail so they'd receive it ASAP.  They proceeded to send me a bill this month for $425.  So much for deferring my loans without penalty.  So here I was, sitting on an even MORE expensive bill I couldn't pay with a company who won't work with me other than through paperwork to pay back a loan I never took from them nor wanted to, because the company I went with sold my account to this one.  I had no idea what I could possibly say to them to convey that I could in no way afford $425/month if I couldn't afford $420/month, and my confusion for why it's become more expensive now AND what is my status on all that paperwork I just paid to have sent to them anyway.

So I went to check the mail as a last ditch effort to see if anything had changed.  I had received a letter from them this week after all.  I had no idea what to expect from it, I was certain I was going to be turned down because I couldn't send my tax information from last year because I no longer have it.  I had to send my pay check stubs which make it seem like I make more money/month than I actually do.

Imagine my intense surprise, relief, and joy when I learned they'd approved me.  I now owe them whatever I can afford to pay.  I'm so grateful that this happened, because I was absolutely certain I wasn't going to be approved.  Thank God!  Now I'm going to celebrate by paying off the other bills I owe and have been sitting on with worry over Sallie Mae.  Being an adult is 'awesome'.

March 25, 2014

Off Day

What a day today.  About the only thing to go right is the time I got to spend with my friends.  I work up this morning to find one of my poor birds dead and it pretty much went downhill from there.  Well, really it went downhill from accidentally waking up 3 hours past when I intended.  After that, I proceeded to drop practically everything I touched etc. etc.

I'm going to turn the rest of the day on its head, however.  Time to find something constructive to do before bed.  Like exercises...and probably more hanging with friends.  Yes.  That sounds like the perfect way to say sit down and go home day, you are drunk.

Comparison

I know everyone says Bishop looks like me (cause he does) so I thought I'd make a little baby comparison picture.  In case you can't tell, I'm on the left and Bishop is on the right.  My pictures are a little blurry because I just took a picture of the pictures I had.  Our printer/ scanner isn't hooked up yet. 

I still want to get a picture of John as a baby.  I think it's hard to tell if they look alike because Bishop has my nose which is the most prominent feature.  Bishop does have Johns feet.  And possibly ears.  I don't know where he got his south paw.  Maybe left handedness is a recessive gene. 

March 24, 2014

Climber

Bishop is in this phase where he climbs over everything.  Even if its not in his way.  The problem is he often chooses things that don't stay put and he ends up falling over.  He was trying to climb unto the car seat earlier.  I saw him pulling himself up then looked away and the next second he was on the floor crying.  I don't even know how he hurt himself.  I didn't hear a bump or anything. 

In the picture, he's climbing over his musical toy that my mom bought him for Christmas.  He's actually really good at climbing on it even though it slides around on the carpet. 

Being Domestic

I suddenly decided to be domestic today and made some homemade bread and chicken noodle soup from scratch.  Right now, I'm waiting for the noodles to finish boiling and then I get to reap the tasty fruits of my labor.  I'm super excited!  The only thing I'm missing is some people to share this with.

I guess that's why I decided to blog about my soup and tasty bread extravaganza today.  It's like sharing it with everyone who reads this on the internet, which is like sharing it in person.  It's almost the same!

I sort of wish I had the opportunity to cook for others more often.  I would totally make a bunch of things I wouldn't eat everything of myself.  Maybe I did miss my calling as a cook.

Edit:  It was totally awesome!  Yay!

March 23, 2014

Religious Goodness

I had another one of those days where it seemed like the church sermon was lining up with things I'd been thinking about this week.  I wonder if I'm just really on board with the direction Mass is taking now or if my life is just lining up happily like that to mess with me.

I spent this afternoon reading some scripture and had an epiphany.  The same text that a bunch of ministers were using on me as a reason why Catholicism was preaching a false religion is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT when in the proper context.  I have a bunch of great resources which all help me to contextualize scripture now as opposed to when I was 19 and just starting off learning about theology and philosophy and at the mercy of those who were teaching me.  Wow.  Also, I think with some hind sight and when I started thinking about it, it was kind of ridiculous to take on the belief that particular parts of scripture are speaking out against an institution that wasn't technically in existence, even if the framework was being built.  Just saying.

All in all, it was a pretty awesome day!  I'm looking forward to next week when I get to talk about and lead RCIA in the Rosary.  Grandma J. taught me about how to do it and it's something special I've always loved her for.

Recovering

Last night was so much fun.  I am so tired today though.  I didn't get to bed until almost 3am and Bishop was up at 8:30.  John got him to sleep last night. That is a huge accomplishment.  Usually I have to do it cause I'm the one that feeds him.  He went down really easy tonight *knock on wood*.  I think he's getting used to his new house!  Naps are still a little difficult.  He went down for a nap today but then only slept for 30 minutes.  It kinda sucked cause I wanted a nap too.  It's cool, I'll sleep really good tonight. 

March 22, 2014

Freebies!

Tonight was pretty awesome at work.  It totally made up for the not awesome day of yesterday.  I got to work with Haily and she had her mom send me and her a piece of cake each.  Then a regular came in and just gave me a pair of the most gorgeous earrings ever.  I immediately replaced the studs I'd been wearing to reopen my ears with them, because they are amazing.

I really love how people can be so awesome sometimes.  If we were all just a little more generous, this world could be an amazing place.  I hope one day I'll be in a position to be more financially generous, but until then, I'm open to being generous with the things I have.  After all, I can use a little less things and a little more smiles from random people in my life.

Party night!

So tonight I get to ditch the family and hang out with my two favorite girls in the world!  We're gonna party bff style by going to a gay bar.  I feel like one day, all the gay bars in the world will just be filled with straight girls partying with their friends.  I've never actually been to a gay bar but I only ever hear straight girls talk about going there. 

But before we party, we're gonna go clean up our old apartment.  Hopefully its the last time I have to go there.  Although we might end up going back tomorrow if we don't finish today.  Things always take longer when there's a baby.  I learned this from painting.  Bishop doesn't understand "10 more minutes".  When he wants attention, he wants it now. 

March 21, 2014

It's about the get crafty in this house

Look what the most amazing husband in the world got me today!  I've been wanting a sewing machine for a while now.  Now I get to do all sorts of crafty things! 

On another topic, I realized Bishop is a leftie today.  I suspected he was for a while but he was too young to tell so I just forgot about it.  Then today he was holding his bib and waving it around and I realized he was using his left hand.  Then it dawned on me that he uses his left hand to grab and eat cheerios.  I guess we have a creative type on our hands! 

Something Missing

Since yesterday I've been totally pumped up.  It's absolutely because I remembered The Protomen.  I forgot how much I need to hear their music, and I'll tell you why.

So much music in modern society is about giving up.  I'm not one of those people who can just give up easy.  Anyone who knows me is aware of this!  It's probably really annoying to most of my friends.  They love me anyway.  I have awesome friends.  (Thank you for loving my stubborn self, friends!).  I digress; I can't stand a lot of modern music because I can't empathize with giving up or giving into grief.  Tangentally, I can to a degree.  I suffer from depression, but I've never just let it consume me.  I struggled for years to find a solution to this chemical imbalance in my brain, did research for years, used myself experimentally for years, until last year I figured out what my trigger was and am doing SO MUCH BETTER.  Also, I can't stand a message that tells us to just give up.  If anything, that only makes me want to fight harder against such a mentality.

I love music that pumps me up and inspires me to keep on going.  I miss that.  There are so few bands out there that get recognized who profess an upbeat message like that.  I want more of it.  I crave it!  My muse craves it.  It makes me want to go out and kick the world in the face and tell it to sit down and shut up because it's never going to keep me down.

That being said, this is also absolutely why I wanted to be a teacher to begin with.  I want to teach kids not to give up, and to better themselves.  I want them to know that they don't have to be victims of social consumerism telling them how to be and what's cool, but that they can derive the change just by being themselves and bettering themselves.  I also want them to learn to take a stand against people to try to knock them down, not through violence, but with tenacity.  I'm thinking of a specific incident here where a student I was subbing for came up to tell me that she didn't want to go to music because her instructor had taken all of the fun out of learning to play the guitar for her.  When I asked how, she said the instructor had told her she was awful at playing the guitar and should just quit.  The girl had only JUST picked it up.  Of course she was going to suck.  No one just picks up a guitar and plays well.  I told her this and then I told her "Don't let her win.  If it's something you love and want to learn, then learn it.  And don't learn it to shove it in her face later, but learn it because it's something you love and want to do.  Put your passion into it and don't look back and the naysayers; no one ever picked up an instrument and was a genius at it."  The world needs more people telling kids to try rather than preventing them from trying out of fear.

This blog took a weird turn.  I'm just going to leave this here.

March 20, 2014

Some days...

I just have zero inspiration.  I mean, there's probably plenty to talk about, I just don't wanna.  But I'm not giving up cause I'm not lame like Kris's friend who doesn't even want to try lent.  You know, there have been days during lent over the past 4 years (4 years? holy shit!) when I forgot to write a blog post, but I never thought "fuck it, I give up" no!  Cause I'm a professional!  I should probably not put off writing until this late.  My brain is starting to shut down cause its almost bed time and Bishop is asleep so my cursing filter has been turned off.  Not that I feel bad about cursing in general but its probably insensitive because Kris gave it up for lent.  Then she's gonna see me cursing and be like "that sounds like fun... I'm gonna start cursing now" and her whole lent will be ruined!  Except it wont because she just said she doesn't give up that easy.  She's a trooper. 

I'm just gonna stop typing now. 

Life is Hard

I had a conversation today with someone about Lent and what they were doing for it.  I won't go into specifics, but the gist of the conversation went like this:  "I would give something up, but it's too hard and I fail, so why bother trying?"

Why not try?  And if you fail, you try again.  If you keep failing, you keep trying until you can do it.  I mean, I know we're human and I know tenacity is difficult, but if it's something good, persevere instead of giving up!  I think we're too content not to try in the face of adversity, to give into comfort because it's easier.  This is a terrible position we've allowed ourselves to be in.  You fight the good fight, not because it's easy, but because it's right and good.  That might be taking Lent to an extreme, but I was deviating a bit and generalizing.

In response to this conversation, I suddenly remembered a really cool band I'd forgotten about and began to rock out to their music.

I'm just going to leave this here.

March 19, 2014

Updates and Sparkles

I had a totally awesome day today.  The only job I had to do was a sub job and when I got there, it turned out to be a paid full day job that I only had to stay a half day for.  The particular grade level I was teaching made it so teachers have team meetings all afternoon and a planning period.  When I asked the office if they needed me anywhere else, they told me no and to have a great day.  Well it was a great day!

I went to bother my sister and her coworkers at work, then I came home and cooked a tasty steak dinner for my sister.  I'll probably spend some time reading scripture before too long tonight, because I feel like reading some.  I probably should have done that before I started this post.

Which reminds me, it's been forever since I've done an update on lent:

Still fasting!

The cursing thing needs work, still working on that.  Cold turkey is awfully hard, but at least I'm more aware of the way I talk.

I have found myself much more outgoing towards others lately!  Even if I don't feel like being outgoing inside, I've been sucking it up and trying to work through those issues instead of laboring on in misery about them.  As such, I'm a much happier person!  I came to the realization (which is sort of a dumb one, because you'd think that would be obvious) that I could either make the conscious choice to be upset or happy and have been choosing to be happier.  This is difficult when I'm frustrated because I'm hungry, only eating very lightly for days on end, but I'm more relaxed and forgiving towards others.  It's not perfect, but it's a start!

I've also added a workout routine to what I've been doing, but that's not for Lent.  It's just something else to do.  I intend to be in better shape.  I'm not sure I'm seeing much in the way of results, but I also just started.  It will take time.  I'm totally hopeful!

He's already taken over

This blogging thing is getting harder.  I feel like last year, I was barely in it cause I posted from my phone all the time.  This year, I'm always super aware that people actually read this thing.  I always feel like I have to write about something good and worth while.  I know babies are always worth while.  And adorable.  But I didn't want this to become my sons blog.  He's just so cute that he takes over everything in my life.  You know that scene from family guy where the guy wants to show a stranger pictures of his kids and he just repeatedly slaps him in the face with the photographs?  I feel like that's what my blog is.  Just imagine that this picture is printed out on real paper and is hitting you in the face right now.  Or better yet, feel free to print it out and actually hit yourself in the face with it. 

*slap slap slap*

March 18, 2014

On Soapboxes and Chesterton

The topic I want to talk about today is one I don't think I should actually weigh in on.  I go back and forth on whether or not I want to use this area as a soapbox.  In many ways, I already am.  This is our little chunk of the internet to talk about what we want, whether it's something personally happening to us in our lives, or just things that we have thoughts about.  In other ways, I think some things are better off left in their own little corners of the internet, not touched with a 39 1/2 foot pole just to weed out the spammers and trolls.  It is my fervent desire that in this day and age we should be mature enough to have rational conversations regarding all manner of problems going on in our world.  But people really aren't like that; especially with hot button issues that create an immediate emotional reaction and considering how difficult it is to temper that reaction.

That being said, I think it's safer to talk about a book I've been reading on and off while I substitute teach-one of two.  Heretics by Chesterton was a difficult one for me to get into.  I feel like I should read Orthodoxy first, but I would probably be just as lost reading that one as I feel with his response to the response to Orthodoxy.  I feel like I'm listening in on a conversation that I'm not only hearing only one half of, but have little context for.  That's ok, though.  With a little research and a little time, I'll get that figured out.  The book in and of itself is still interesting.

There was a section I read yesterday which really got me thinking.  Chesterton posits that no one is asking "what is good" anymore, but instead we have given up on trying to determine what "good" is, as if we can never know.  That really blew my mind, more because I believe he's probably right than anything else.  It further boggled my mind trying to comprehend how we consider ourselves a progressive society, and yet have ceased to make progress where it really matters.  I need to think about this a little bit more before I run on a tangent of a rant, but it was something that got me thinking.

I'm just going to leave this here, too, because it made me smile and laugh:

"The human race, according to religion, fell once, and in falling gained knowledge of good and of evil. Now we have fallen a second time, and only the knowledge of evil remains to us." ~ G. K. Chesterton

Photo shoot

So I tried to do a photo shoot with Bishop today.  It failed miserably.  I wanted to take some cute naked baby pictures.  So I put a blanket down on the mattress in Bishops room so there would be a white floor and blue background.  There was also a sunbeam coming through the window which I thought would make it look better.  So I got him ready and almost immediately my phone froze.  So I had to wait for it to work again.  Then I realized the sunbeam did not work at all in the pictures.  And I could not get Bishop to sit still for one second.  He kept crawling away to find anything to get into.  Even when I was holding him down, he was squirming to get away.  Needless to say, I didn't really get any pictures.  This is the best one and its blurry. 


March 17, 2014

New Job?

I almost forgot to blog today, but I have a very good  reason why!  I spent all of my free time today working on getting an application filled out for a new job.  I literally just finished.  I don't think I'm going to get this job, but I sincerely hope I do.  It would be the same amount of work time with almost double my pay.  I could do that!  I could pay off my student loans in three years doing that, no problem.  So here's hoping.

The rest of my free time next week while all the schools are on spring break will like wise be spent filling out applications.  Something good's got to come up.  I just know it will!  I have this feeling that a good job's around the corner.  Lots of prayers and advice are welcome, please!

Baby Shower

Bishop got his first baby shower last night.  The getting clean kind, not the kind with presents.  But I did let him play with my margarita glass.  It's good too cause I managed to get a picture that is internet appropriate.  I mean, the ones with his penis hanging out are super cute, but I feel like he might be upset with me someday if he knows his baby penis is on the internet.  I'll just keep that shit in the baby book where it belongs to show to his future girlfriends. 

This is a good sink for baby washing.  It's deep and easy to sit up in.  The only issue was he kept reaching for the knobs so I had to distract him with the margarita cup.  Next time, we'll go back to bath time cause we have the sink plug now. 

March 16, 2014

It's not about Bishop, but he has a short cameo

After writing my post yesterday, I thought "that's a pretty good amount to write" and then I saw it from the computer web browser and realized how pathetically short it was.  That's the problem with phone posting.  It basically turns into a long text message because it takes longer to write each word.  Plus on the computer its easier to post pictures because I can format them correctly.  AND I don't have to look when I type.  I'm just that good.  Every time I look away while typing, it reminds me of Kris.  She used to look at me while we were having a conversation while continuing to type away on her computer.  That takes even more skill though because you have to think about two things at once. 

So anyone that is friends John on facebook already knows that our ice maker is still not hooked up and our washer doesn't work.  Hopefully the washer is an easy fix.  The lever that stops the washer when you open the lid came off.  But at least our internet is hooked up because, you know... priorities. 

It feels like we're camping now.  Or staying in a hotel.  All the stuff we need is somewhere but we have to hunt for it every time we need to do something.  Everything takes twice as long. 

Before I leave, here's a cute picture....