I had a good long chat with one of the priests at my church today and I've resolved myself to finally move forward on some things that have been keeping me back. I just want to bury the past in the past and not have it come back to haunt me over and over again. This week threw me for a loop, because I got side swiped by some pretty rocky parts of my past out of the blue; things that still hurt to think about and also things I didn't know would still hurt when I encountered them again.
After that discussion, I learned some of the reasons behind why those things came up again. This time, it didn't hurt to talk about. I don't feel the same weight I did when it happened for 'no reason'. A part of me feels like I should feel worse about it, but I actually don't. I'm a little irritated by what happened now, but I no longer feel like it's hovering over me, holding me back. Either.
I obviously need to take a serious look at what's going on with me, which is going to take a lot of introspection and prayer, but I'm finally ready to move on with my life and I finally feel like I'm in a position to do it.
I just want to finish this post with a huge thank you to every single one of my friends. I love you all. You are all awesome. I'm not a perfect friend. At times I'm probably unbearable to be around, but you never make me feel like I'm a burden. You've been here for me in ways you probably will never realize and I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel taken advantage of or awkward. I hope you all keep in contact with me over the years, because you're awesome. The best people, honestly.