Lately I've been feeling quite lonely. At first I thought it was a number of things. Anxiety over all this homework stuff, rushing through weeks just trying to get things done, less time I spend with family and friends, or perhaps the fact that most of the people I used to talk to just aren't around anymore. Mixed with this feeling of loneliness, though, is an intense desire to spend a great deal of time at my church.
I put in the last of my CDs today and the speaker was talking about how prayer is integral to having a relationship with God. I'm wondering of my desire to spend more time at church is a recognition that I really pray well when I'm there. Otherwise, my prayer life isn't all that great. I always say I should pray more, but sometimes I feel so awkward praying. It also doesn't help that I loaned out my prayer book...although really that's more a cop out. I could download prayers from the internet for free and pray them or meditate on scripture.
I was more or less surprised to learn that I think my loneliness stems from a lack of relationship with God. I guess I should really start praying more and I think I may even keep a prayer journal or something. I have to wonder if anyone I know has had much experience with that. This is something to look into.