I spent today in a constant state of near tears. I don't know why, but I keep thinking about those kids who were offset in Syria. I was imagining them walking miles without food, not knowing where they were going or whether they were going to be okay. I think about them stuck in a foreign land, impoverished, struggling to get educated and to survive. I'm starting to get a better idea of what it feels like to be hungry all the time. At least I don't have to worry where my next meal will come from or if I'll be alright. However, today I realized that anytime I eat food, it's not enjoyable. Eating anything is starting to feel more like a chore. I'm only eating light meals, so I'm never satisfied, and getting something on my stomach just makes me realize how hungry I still am.
On the other hand, I've started remembering scripture passages and prayers I never knew I had memorized/internalized. It's kind of amazing. Yesterday, I started thinking about some Psalms I don't recall ever memorizing, and today I was thinking about some passages from the New Testament. I wish I could remember what they were now. The down side to all of this is that my memory seems to be getting worse lately. I wandered around in a circle at work today, trying to remember what I'd just started doing. I'm not even really tired. I've been sleeping well. I'm going to have to re-evaluate the kinds of foods I've been eating and see if I can balance out a little better. I barely remembered to post tonight!
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