I spent a lot of time thinking about church today. I am not at this point in time ready to put together all of my thoughts on the matter, however. I feel like they need a few more days to simmer, and possibly for me to write some things down for myself before I string something more solid together. I will say this, though, I am very sad for the Church today. I'm not talking about being sad necessarily for the current climate the Church is in or the Church as it stands today, though. I mean, thinking about these things has made me quite sad for the Church, and also quite sad for the people who feel ostracized by the Church.
I've found a lot of solace and beauty in the Church, her teachings and doctrine, and the rituals and meditations offered since I joined the Catholic faith. The more I learn and experience, the more I fall deeper in love with my faith and feel myself drawing closer to God. I know not everyone has had this same experience, but I wish I could share these feelings with others sometimes. I'm pretty sure that's why I enjoy teaching RCIA so much. I want to share the things I've experienced and the things I feel with others in a meaningful way, in a way that they can understand and maybe experience themselves.
I felt like praying for the Church and for the world today, so I prayed the Divine Mercy chaplet. It touched me in one of those profound ways that you can't really explain. Love to all. I will try to make tomorrow's post more coherent and less vague, but I spent a lot of time in thought today and being unwilling to talk about until I have a better grasp on my thoughts-not to mention having nothing else to talk about-I wanted to share something meaningful-ish today.